Sorry I didn’t blog the last few days. I like to blog 3 times a week but between mid day on Wednesday until now I simply was passed out, gone, overheated, heart unstable, unable to generate body heat, in pain, and other not so pleasant things.
I think anytime you WANT to die and don’t, and are genuinely unhappy about that, you are not in a very good physical and mental place.
Now that I am up again, and sore and realizing all the things that I had ‘planned’ to do, it seems a bit overwhelming. But I think if I just do what I do, and then do what comes next, it won’t be that bad.
I want to do a post about ‘sweet boys’ and the allure of being a princess (hint, satin and velvet not only is shiny and pretty, they also feel softer and more enjoyable than say….those jeans and overalls boys are usually stuck in (Quote from 'men in dresses')"The first time I became aware of female clothing and of its appeal, was a small child when I was out to bed as a toddler in Ladies Knickers, because I had run out of night wear, having a fever with German Measles, all my clothes had become damp and were in the wash. I can remember even now how I wished I could wear the same clothes the next night... without any idea why! But I can remember after all these years the yearning that a small child felt to wear silk knickers. This could hardly be a sexual need or kick, not as a little toddler!" – babies head for the shiny objects, then some to most guy babies try to use object to bash another object, sibling, parent or passer-by – while others just like the shiny objects) (boy by the way).
As for girls, well, those who want to dress like guys usually can the rest of the year, so usually halloween is about ‘dressing UP’ –aka, experimenting with sexuality (if you are bombarded with ‘you ARE sex appeal’ 40+ times a day in society, then what better time to experiment with that than halloween).
I guess the whole idea of having the persona of a career, a fantasy, a curiosity without having to do the actual work is interesting – maybe that explains the YMCA gay guys? But these days, how many careers are so specialized to be visibly identified?
I think If I was to be able to dress up, I would go as Abe Lincoln (early career, without gigantic wart)who seemed to grasp both human nature and the internet age 150 years before it arrived: "I believe it is an established maxim in morals that he who makes an assertion without knowing whether it is true or false, is guilty of falsehood; and the accidental truth of the assertion, does not justify or excuse him." Then going as A. Lincoln, I would memorize a whole host of sayings,"I expect to maintain this contest until successful, or till I die, or am conquered", since Abe used to have a knack of insulting people without getting beaten up (maybe being over 6 foot helped) "He can compress the most words into the smallest idea of any man I know." by getting people to laugh at him or themselves or at least take long in figuring out what he is saying, (on a written idea) "..as thin as the homeopathic soup that was made by boiling the shadow of a pigeon that had been starved to death."
The one quote I remember most about Lincoln is from his Presidency, when accused of graft (one of the greatest political bribers until Bush), he said that of course he was, as he so many enemies (in government) and had to simply trust his friends. This idea showed above all else a genuis who holds himself and his friends to morals, and those craven to greed, in order for a better future (or in this case a future country at all)
Plus, I just saw the Criteron Collection film of Young Abraham Lincoln doing a court case by John Ford and I’ve always liked that he was a president which had to make difficult decisions, but was carried by an earnest desire for unity and to do what was good for all. I wonder how many girls end up going to costume parties as US presidents? Probably more than I imagine.
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