Friday, July 27, 2007

How Marie made nihilism sexy for me and other nice stuff

Just a Friday amusement until I can get my post on boxing and how great getting hit repeatedly in the face by bright pink gloves can be (by a girl wearing French nails no less). I am still doing lots of medical meetings and tests with specialists. The only thing specialists are ever sure about is that you are going to be doing a LOT more tests (usually accompanied with “hmm”) And you begin to feel like you are down the rabbit hole. For instance, after two doctors concluded that my thyroid was not a problem, an internist did not believe them (other doctors, bah!) and did a full spectrum of tests and concluded himself, that yes, the results show my thyroid is not a problem. But now, the endocrinologist has looked at the SAME test results and concluded the thyroid IS a problem so we are doing ALL the tests over again at a different lab. But even if the tests come out exactly the same, the endocrinologist doesn’t actually know or have an idea what is wrong, but that something is wrong, so (you guessed it), more tests. And I do stuff like this twice a day.

How do I keep sane you ask? I have been watching the same two videos for the last week. The first is Marie-douceur, Marie-colère the French version of Paint it Black by the legendary singer Marie LaForet which I find actually better than the original. But then I like undulating female voices whispering the sounds of excited nihilism in my ear. It goes to a video of MGS4; a sort of Black Hawk Down II (is it violent...oh yes!).


The second way I keep going is my religious inspiration which of course is a) completely self referencing and b) completely offensive to most Christians (hey, that’s what they say, not me). So I have been listening to the song God is a Girl by Groove Coverage. Hello, of course God is a girl! But apparently this is so controversial that most of the people posting videos using the tune put “Of course I don’t believe this” in the notes box. Geez, God is caring, has empathy and produced the whole human race – FEMALE! Anyway, I watch the version with Sora from anime Keleido Star. Sora is the type of girl who thrives on people saying “that’s not possible” and spending lots of time practicing, pushing herself and trying her hardest – she doesn’t give up. Like Linda said about me tonight at boxing, what was the word she used? Insane? No. Psychotic? No. Driven. That might have been it, or ‘Determined’ or ‘Did you realize your right arm was trembling the whole night?’ One or more of those.

6 comments:

kathz said...

Just popping in briefly to say good luck with the tests, etc. Internet access is a bit patchy so I can't manage a long comment or response though I am managing to read your posts and thinking of you.

Jim said...

I liked the tune "Paint it Black" by Marie LaForet. I will look for a copy for my MP3 player

Paco Steinway said...

Thanks for the heads-up RE Marie LaForet.

Elizabeth McClung said...

Kathz: hoping you are having a good vacation

Jim & Paco: yeah, Marie just has one of those voices.

Daisy said...

I linked you on my blog, since I featured GOD IS A GIRL as my Sunday School lesson for today. Thank you so much for sharing it!

Daniel, the Guy in the Desert said...

I totally love your take on faith. I also love that it bugs the little people who keeps their heads in a box.